A New Start, Hopefully

I was delighted when I was given the possibility of taking up a technical support position by the company but after much discussion in the management, they decided that they don't want to spend to much time in training a fresh graduate for the position and thus opt for a person with a MSc.

Oh well, there goes my hope for a technical position. For a fleeting second, it actually made me felt so bad about my second year in Uni. Should I have done better for Molecular Biology, I would have made a better grade and I am sure with that, any management would consider me for a technical position. HAHAHA... *swt* (all these thoughts sometimes, make me go cuckoo and frustrated easily).

Ehem.

Anyways...it doesn't matter. Whatever it is, I shouldn't be closing my doors to opportunities (Ppl, if you are in my situation...please do open up your mind. If things doesn't go your way, try to go their way and see things in new light :) )

I have and I supposed I'm now on my way to a new path. It is a path where a lot of fresh graduates in this country are going through: the sales line in the technical world. It's not really as bad as many dreamy fresh graduates (who like yours truly here, who was so crazy to enter the world of R&D in this hopeless M'sia....but hey, don't get me wrong...I love this place...just that it still have a long way to go to chase up to our neighbours in this department. Like....50 years...so more...and for all they know, they are still battling in chosing the "best" education method for the primary/high school students) thought.

For a start, I know that I will get the exposures that I wanted as well as rewards which made a lot of people go green eye. Muahahahaa...and I know...if I do my job well...I can easily go for my MSc in a short time...perhaps with a little more networking and serious discussions with the right people, I can convince people to support my studies! Okay...that is a little too much but hey...it is a start. Moreover, by the end of the day, it all goes to this clear fact: Scientists made a discovery but it is the entrepeuner who is the one making the big bucks.

Haha...it doesn't hurt for being a little optimistic eventhough I have yet to get an offer in B&W. It seems like Life is getting more exciting now with a second interview on its way and my convocation coming soon!

~ Signing off till this Friday.

Serious Thinking in need of Serious Actions

After so long, I have finally cleaned up my messy table today. I planned to find a photo of the before and after the clean-up but didn't manage to. I guess I have deleted the photo of 'before'. Anyways, you just gotta believe it, my table is Ultra Super Duper neat and tidy now...after the 3 years of constantly dumping notes, rough papers and books around. Ah...I missed those days...

Things have went on a fast track after the Uni life and it still is. Day comes day goes, for some lucky ones, they have managed to secure a job, for the wealthy ones, they are either still on holiday or have already gone to pursue the next level of education while for the least fortunate, they are still bumming at home.

Me?

I am partially bumming while working part time at the same time. I can't stay at home the whole day without doing anything. I would go crazy...insane...lunatic. My train of thoughts have been zooming like a bullet train, stopping briefly to make me realize something every now and then. Sometimes, I just have to distract myself.

Overall, in these 2 months, I was fortunate enough to be shortlisted by 3 of the best companies around in Malaysia for an interview but I was always caught unprepared. Two caught me when I'm not ready to take up any sales position, while the most recent one caught me when I was ready for a sales position but not a technical one. I love the recent job description (both challenging and perfect) but sad to say that my final year project (no matter how proud was I in it) and my internship did not prepare me well enough for such technical expertise. Damn god...I guess that is what you get for a minimal investment in Uni. I can't say that my Uni is that lousy but it is not good enough to prepare me for the working world. I shouldn't be blaming the institute but for those who know, they, too will agree that the syllabus were not sufficient in equipping the student with the necessary skills for them to survive as a graduate. Geez, now that the regrets set in, it made me feel that I should have gone under Dr.L during my final year. I bet I could have learn better and more under her supervision.

Anyways, that was in the past. I hope SV would call me up in the next two weeks and secure a place for me. That would be the best gift ever. But, the chance is seemingly slim I supposed...because, honestly I did rather badly during the interview. Right...great...so much a technical questions which I could not answer. I just hope that somehow, I left good vibes and they like my attitude (winning the other competitors).

That really gave me the urge to do some serious revision now...yea..it did. Argh, I've got so much to do and well...basically the To-do things on my list are:
1. Write & Email
2. Revise (For this, I really gotta kick my own arse to start doing it. I have been urging myself to do it but just somehow, I can't get myself to do it. How ironic!)
3. Tidy up (already did for my desk...half-way through my hard disk..so after that, I guess the next would be...uhm...my Memories box)
4. Self-reflection and improvement (I need to seriously overcome my nervousness and stage fright!)
5. Look for more openings
6. Exercise!!! (I am in serious need to go out and sweat it out...all those toxins in me are making me ill with laziness)

Gosh...now that I have written down my thoughts, everything has become clear...and in need of real movements to get them done!