28th February

28th February 2010...Chap Goh Mei...the end of February...Lunar Calendar's Valentine's Day...

Today's moon is full and creamy yellow...like the color of the Guinness' foam (hey..says who Guinness is an old man's drink! okay...maybe it was...but that was before I came to enjoy drinking it. so now it's not an old man's drink. It is...something vintage. LOL)

After a few minutes...the creamy yellow moon turns into a pale white radiant orb. Glowing peacefully, admired by the fools on earth. The fools who ogle at Its beauty, thirsting for its shine.

Sighs...moon changes color and shapes every single day.
You out there...have faith...life changes every second depending on the action taken by oneself. One course of change would influence the next outcome:)

72 Tenants of Prosperity

What's the problem with wanting to watch a CNY theme movie on a CNY just for the sake of CNY (even though the movie may suck...as every CNY-themed movie nowadays)?!

Geez...I thought I will be able to get someone to watch with me but seemingly everyone is telling the same thing: the movie is going to be sucky. So...yea...the one person whom I want to watch 72 Tenants of Prosperity with, doesn't bother to watch together with me. I guess I'll just have to either get the DVD or drag my friends to watch it with -- at least they are more willing...hmphh!!!

Damn sad this _ _ _ _ life is. Suddenly I felt it is just revolving around _ _ _ _ _ and that's all.
T.T
but no one damn care. :(

Chinese New Year Day 1

Chinese New Year...ahhh...every year the same event takes place and the routine repeats but what makes it different from the previous years are the people whom we celebrate with. Human age and mature with Time and every year, it is different.

My family always wonder what happens after my grandma rest in peace (I hope she will live on to see me married...though I'm not sure when that will be..LOL)...because at the moment, she is the connector to the family. We spend Reunion Dinner together with the family in NS because of her. Yea, I guess those with family matters in mind will know what I mean. People change and the You of today might not be the same You of next year.

So anyways, we always spend the Reunion Dinner in NS as a family. Then, on the first day of Chinese New Year, we will always have it as a vegetarian food day.
Simple dishes...something different from Reunion Dinner when we have meat and stuff. It's simple but truly delicious :)p

As I grow up, I guess some differences are that I no longer wear new clothes for New Year. When I was younger, my mum made it a point to get me new clothes for the new year...that's something like a Chinese New Year tradition which my family still practices. Doesn't really apply to me though because I always thought, you can always buy new clothes even if it's not Chinese New Year. Plus, after I start earning for myself, I have been on a tight budget. Haha...so, it doesn't really matter if I have new clothes or not. Honestly, it's all in your mind, isn't it? If you think that wearing new clothes and all for New Year would affect your year, then by all means, wear them.

So, the next difference is the Lion Dance:


After moving to this new home, we have been asking the Lion Dance troupe to visit our house every Chinese New Year. Yea...their price increases by year.
but it's all good. My grandma likes them. Haha...the smile on her face worths a thousand, really, since she doesn't really smile much and she's pretty much a bit grumpy most of the time. LOL...
Well...Chinese New Year...it's all about food. Goodness...I'm sure to gain weight every Chinese New Year. I mean...look at those biscuits and chips. Chips always go well with alcoholic drinks...which is why I hate to drink when there's good chips around. LOL..it adds on to the calories. That is also why I prefer to drink at a place where I can dance so that I can sweat the calories out. (ehem...that's actually a reason...haha..i just love dancing..though i must say, I suck at it)Besides eating, today my aunt and I have been adventurous. We went on a trip in search of a newly open Carrefour. Best of all, the trip is just impromptu. We intended to go Tesco to get a pint of ice cream but since we saw banners all over the place; trying to lead us to this new Carrefour, our mind told us to just follow the banner.

It's not too difficult to locate the place though...Thanks to the newly constructed highway. It takes only 10 minutes to get to Rahang from S2.There's nothing much there though. As usual, huh...the hypermarket...KFC...mobile phone shops...cafes...
So after that, my family and I went on a 3 hours trip to Port Dickson. It has been a long time since I last visited Port Dickson...but I see that unless you get to the deeper part of the beach side, all you get would be itchiness from the sea water.

Yeap...the last I went to feel the seawater, my legs got itchy all the way back to S -- until I manage to find clean water to clean my legs.

Therefore, I didn't want to get near the sea today. I just linger around to take some pics...and after that went home for some red wine (argh...calories! and I guess I'm a lil' tipseyyy now...haha...)

Geez...if only I don't have to wake up early to go to the morning market tomorrow, I'd sleep till it's movie time. Then again, I am the family chauffeur...heheee...Hmm...another highlight of the day...I guess everyday is Valentine's Day when you are with the one whom you truly feel for.

2010 and 25th

Year 2010, a year when I am turning 25 in July (dear boyfriend and friends -- take note! Haha...). E told me that this is the time when I should start taking care of both my skin and my waistline. Yea..how everyone knows that I have a thing for chocolates and cakes as well as how I treat my skin... *eyes roll*

Most ladies told me that this is the pivotal point of a woman. It's an age where a young lady matures completely. Ehem...biologically it doesn't make sense....but anyways, it seems like if every lady has got this idea in mind that after their 25th, they are on the road of aging. And those cellulite will be get more stubborn.

So, the range of beauty products will have to include anti-aging, collagen, fat-burning and the sort of stuff. Heck, I always keep my facial products to a minimal...uhm...partly because I am too lazy to keep up with all the routine and I'm too broke to get the whole range. C'mon, we have just got to face it that beauty comes at a price. (Especially when I'm such a supporter of Sisley and CD... :((( )

But anyways, I guess I'm still doing fine. Prolly I need to exercise more and my skin will be just fine. Hehe~
Take it from me, build an inner confident, take care of your skin on a regular basis, drink plenty of H2O and exercise :) I can't say that I have a hot bod (which based on feedbacks, I have to work on that thigh) but at least I'm in a comfortable size (to my expectation). Alright, cellulite has been a lady's century-old enemy but then again, you still have got to live right? (Maybe to those who don't enjoy desserts, their life will be much easier to go on without those but to the kind like me? T.T
I practically swear by chocolates and ice creams)

Haha...okay, I'm just a very bad influence when it comes to dieting. Then again (again) I don't eat that much...sometimes I only have too much sugary stuff... ~__~;
and maybe other food when it's home cooked. (Nothing beats home-cook food, seriously!)

Sighs...really..look at those delicious home-cooked food -- devoid of ajinomoto. *drools*

I always thought, beauty is only skin-deep. What's important is a good heart and a balanced physical appearance isn't it? ^__^

So, that sums up my New Year Resolution (okay..it's based on the Lunar Calendar because I don't usually set resolutions since I don't keep them..anyways, I just do it now because suddenly I thought I should list the things which I wanted to do for this year since it is 'seemingly' important to a girl):

1. Dance more, do it good and enjoy myself while I'm at it.
2. Pray that I get to do what I really really really really really wanted (fingers still crossed..I'll know if I get to do that by the end of Feb).
3. Organize myself so that I can volunteer myself (I have that in mind for such a long time already and yet, due to my messy schedule, I can't bring myself to do it for real).
4. Maintain a healthy lifestyle (have proper early dinner and nooooooo supper) and lose some kgs..quoting S: flat tummy!
5. Bake more
6. Paint and play with my violin...and jog...on a regular basis.
7. Try to save more...(I am so desperate in owning my own place...but there's only one word for my account at the moment: deficit....which in a way: I can only survive enough with a little comfort)
8. Have faith. Yea..if there's an age to start...I guess this is the age to start having faith in life and start believing. (I'm envious at both B and S. It feels easier if one have a guide in life to lead them through rocky paths...but ahh...without some falls and bruises, I wouldn't be who I am today. So, second thoughts, nothing to be envious about :) I should be happy for all the reasons and keep that spirit up!!)

Ahh...with all that typed down, I start to hate the fact that after my 18th birthday, everything accelerates. I felt like 21st is just a day ago. All the late-nights, hanging-outs and gatherings...all the youth and don't give a damn about the whole world...and the only responsibility that I had was myself. Well, as compared to now...haha...I guess turning 25th does mean something. It means that I am not only responsible to myself...but to so many other things.
Okay, looks much but I'll just K.I.S.S (keep it simple and sweet)...hehe...happier that way huh? Work hard, play hard, spend moderately and live comfortably.

(hmph...I wonder when will be my breaking point to all this cheerfulness?)

random uploads from sunday's PostSecret (all pics are taken from postsecret)

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Fave Read of the Day

Malaysia veering towards instability, says PERC

By Lee Wei Lian KUALA LUMPUR, Feb 10 — Events since New Year’s Day have given the Hong Kong-based Political and Economic Risk Consultancy (PERC) the impression that the situation in Malaysia is becoming increasingly unstable. In a blistering report on Malaysia released at the end of January, PERC also asserted that a group of elite minorities were dominating the national agenda to the extent that it was hurting Malaysia’s attractiveness to investors. The consultancy, which also publishes reports on the risk ratings of other Asian countries, said it is “probable” that no other Asian country is suffering from as much bad press as Malaysia. Among the developments that caught its attention were the theft of military jet engines, detention of terror suspects from a number of African and Middle East countries following warnings that Islamic militants were planning attacks on foreigners at resorts in Sabah, renewed ethnic and religious “violence” that included arson at some churches and desecration of mosques, and controversy over the integrity of key institutions like the judicial system in the sodomy trial of opposition leader Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim.

“Events of the past month give the impression that pressures are building and the entire situation is becoming much more unstable,” said PERC. The report noted that the government is blaming the international media for exaggerated reporting and Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Razak had argued that the focus should not be on the fringe groups that are causing problems but on the majority of Malaysians who are coming together to condemn the recent acts of violence following the ‘Allah’ controversy. But PERC maintained that the root of the problem was a vocal minority that is dominating the national agenda. “Mr. Razak’s attempt to put the best spin on a bad situation is understandable. He is fighting for his political life and is trying to stop the erosion in confidence in Malaysia’s prospects,” said PERC. “However, he is wrong in saying that Malaysia is being defined by the way the majority of the population are coming together. It is being defined by the ability of a minority to dominate the political agenda, shaping policy and compromising the reputation of key institutions in ways that hurt Malaysia’s reputation as a stable, attractive place for foreign investors.” The report also said that while Islamic activists which are “threatening Malaysia’s secular credentials” are getting the widest coverage, it was the Umno elites, described as “a fringe group of insiders who have been able to profit disproportionately from the policies of the ruling coalition” that deserved the most attention. “They are threatened with a loss of political power that could also impinge directly on their substantial business interests. Malaysia’s future will be determined largely by the tactics this group of insider elites resort to in order to stay in power and the success of those tactics. Their commitment to democracy is a major question mark. If they blatantly manipulate the system in order to remain in power, the public backlash could be worse than anything Malaysia has seen in its modern history.” PERC added Najib’s strategy is looking “increasingly unworkable” as a way to defuse pressures in the country. “He is trying to be all things to all people, but in the end he might satisfy no one,” it noted. Malaysia’s risk index as calculated by PERC rose slightly from 5.24 out of a possible maximum score of 10 in December to 5.4 in January. It however, remained well below the risk index in January last year which stood at 6.42. Countries that score higher on the index are deemed to have a higher level of risk. The PERC report comes as the Najib administration is grappling with a budget deficit and is trying to formulate a new economic model in which private investment plays a bigger role in driving the economy towards developed status. The consultancy pointed out however that even if the opposition were to be in charge come the next election, foreign investors and others would wait and see if the opposition could govern the country effectively. “So far the only thing uniting these (opposition) parties is their opposition to the ruling coalition, not matters like dealing with Malay entitlements, the extent that there should or should not be a broader Islamisation of Malaysia, or an economic programme for promoting the country’s development,” said PERC. PERC maintained in its report that foreign investments into Malaysia have not been forthcoming, either in direct form or in the equity markets. “Foreign companies and investors are remaining cautious until they see how Malaysia gets its own house in order,” it added. *** Mr. Razak...what fairytale is he trying to spin with the "Malaysians are coming together"? Malaysians are trying to be Malaysians most of the time, yes, that's true...I mean, look at us, the Malaysians, we are so accommodating, patient and understanding--unfortunately, this noble intention of becoming Malaysian is always (never failed) being hindered by a certain 'minority'/'group' that desires nothing more than racial disintegration. Moreover, no party is trying to exagerate the issues which Malaysians are currently facing because those issues are already a headline by themselves!

I don't understand and I don't intend to because somehow I just thought it is silly and everything is just out of ego.
So what if you drives an S-class. So what if you are wearing a Rotonde de Cartier. So what if you are walking in an LV...like so-what? That has got nothing to do with me and it is so none of my business! So what if you are someone and so what if you are knowledgeable? I am so not impressed and again, I shout that to you...I am not a t r o p h y!
So why the hell are you so proud when head turns and stare? I am not a trophy and you are an idiot. Now, just stay away because I am very happy with my life now! you can't buy me...nor own me...and I'm not impressed with your status nor your creativity. I'm not even interested in your business and I do not wish to be a part of it!

the beginning of an ending

I was randomly reading a few blogs just now before I gather my thoughts and be productive for an hour. I was smiling and laughing at some of them. Then suddenly it hits me and I realized that I haven't been sharing anything entertaining or light as of lately.

Bah, I haven't even upload the photo and blog of my Taiwan trip. Sighs, right, the year has started off pretty busy (which is for one, a real good start) and slightly bitter. I guess that was what bogged me down recently. Anyways, it doesn't matter really because everyone buys my cheerfulness and it is so easy to deceive people into believing that you are enjoying yourself most of the time. Well, I always thought, just because you are a bitter person, it doesn't mean that you have the rights to impose your bitterness to everyone.

In fact, the right thing to do is to spread happiness and let your laughter be contagious.
Ahh, there are so much things in my head...and so little time yet to type them out and put it onto the world wide space- so that people who shares the same sentiments could read and know that there are another bitter person out there somewhere who understands them.

Then again, which two person can understand each other so well? Quoting RR "Nobody has ever walked in another person's shoe before, hence, they will never exactly understand how it feels like to be another person".

Oh well, I guess when you are feeling bitter, the best thing to do is to look around and realize that yourself is actually in a much better condition than other people. At least you've got enough to save yourself from hunger and cold, you are healthy and free from illness and you are still blessed with a family and friends.

Right. Let's do the bunny chant, "If I survive this one, I can take the next that comes along"

Yeap, I am capable to taking good care of myself and now, let's just pray hard that February has got good news for me. Even though tough days will eventually follow suit but I am sure I can brave through it with or without the support of any other people. Geez...honestly, after almost 2 years of being dependent, I felt so tired to revert back to my old self again. I guess, it is just a girl thing that at times, you just wish that you could depend on another person.
Then again, being dependent would really weaken the soul. Moreover, Fate didn't seem to be giving me a choice. It's more like it that I just have to be independent again.

Well, ~whatever.