nothing but hiatus and void and non-sensical babbling

Okay, the post before this is not exactly meant to turn out that way. I was merely writing and had no idea what to write. Somehow my thoughts ran wild and I lost myself in writing such a piece of post which I then hope was useful and inspirational to some.

Anyways, This post is dedicated to what I wanted to write initially -- that is to purely rant! And rant and goes on and Rant and rant and Rant about my boring routine at the moment. Exciting as it may be at some point of time but it is also like if I have entered a moment of hiatus.

H i a t u s . . .

I remember telling a person that at a certain age, one has the privilege to indulge in a certain behaviour and action. Once you passed that age, the things which you do will lose its meaning. I gave him the example that during high school, you just have to experience first hand on your first crush/love, first kiss, first nightout/club session/zone out moment/pulling stupid acts, first try at balancing between studies and social life, etc etc and upon entering university, you just have to come back to the ground a little and do better in fine tuning your previous experiences.

Then, after graduation, one will have to take shape mentally and get steadied. To me, this is called growing up spicily.
Looking back, I did quite well in spicing up my life. I've got so much sweetness from the past that I can smile foolishly whenever I mesmerize my digital photo album. There were some regrets here and there as well as one hatred which I will not take to my grave (I swear the next time I see my Hatred, I will take it personally to attempt to take what I was owed), but whatever it is, in general, I sum up my history as being worthwhile.

But at the moment, there is a large void in me which I clearly know what the source is. It's just that it is not within my power to fill it up. Argh...this is just so frustrating...

Geez, all this depressing thoughts must be a consequence of my lack of exercises....

....and deprivation of sleep(?)

ARGHHH....

okay, now...if you feel me, please do not hesitate to join me in this: