do you know of happiness?

I actually have a blog at http://jenzl.multiply.com and it is one which i loveeeeeeee so much. anyways...since i have one existing blog at blogspot, i guess i should not leave it empty. i mean..till i figure out how to synchronize them, i'll just post one blog here. hahaa..got inspired to post my first blog (or not..i've been deleting and posting and deleting again over here because i'm just too much in love with the one in multiply to properly maintain this one here) by

yeap..happy moments..this is not my first encounter with it...i remember when i went on a thaipusam day trip, i got approached by some people and they gave me this :
a car sticker. i stuck it on my car windscreen and another, i cut it up and stuck it on my file. Got no idea whatsoever initially on what it is (not that i do right now..but hey...5k is so damn attractive and just by chance..i do have something which i'm very happy about)

Just imagine...me and 5K....5K and i...look at my ecstatic face.i cropped that out in one of those bad photo collection..ehem..oh well..let's not get too carried away shall we? it'd be damn lucky if i even get votes ~~





Happiness...

Well..i WAS happy when i went on a trip to HongKong few days back..it's like wow...shopping spree (since most often than not, i'm a frugal girl who tries not to buy anything which i don't need. i rather save up for trips than spend them on clothes and blings) ! i havent been truly shopping and buying things for donkey kong years.

so especially when i get to buy bargain items! it's like OMG, i got very comfy shirtS and a lil' black dress from Esprit for only less than RM 300! and i also got a really nice Nike for (okay..not much of a bargain) RM 300++ but anyways -- i love the design. so it's well worth since i got a fake puma which only lasted me for a year and i hate it because it's not as long lasting as the originals.
so that's why..for sports shoes -- always go for the ORIs!!

And of course we mustn't forget about the dimsums...lovely delicious and fresh...just one flaw: not warm enough.

Alright, things are still well then..but...


my happiness was not long lasting. i was happy for the first 3 days..but when it comes to the last 2 days...i was stupidly down with chicken pox. i'd rather not let you guys see my photo then...because i was butt ugly although it's a much better condition compared to my friends.

so you see..i'm already not pretty and now added with the pox marks..imagine what an ogre i resembles!

and damn when i was sick and abroad....i MISS home. i truly truly miss KL...i miss everything and everyone back home!

so, i was REALLY on cloud nine when i touched down.

seriously i felt like flying through the glass panel and jump into a cab as soon as possible. i just can't wait to go home!

the feeling of being sick while you are out there in a foreign country is awfully terrible because for one, it is a hotel room and NOT my own comfortable room. regardless of how messy my room is, it is still one with my own soft bed and pillow.

and especially when i was having fever all the time due to the pox, i was practically covering myself but it's just not the same with the blanket i have back at home. and the worst thing is that you are out on a vacation and yet you are confined to the hotel room...like a prisoner! god-damned!not only that but at least i could have some warm water when i'm at home.

in the hotel, the water gets cold real fast. although i can have any food i want when i was in HK due to the reason that my cousins and i all don't believe in the myths of not being allowed to eat certain food when you are having chicken pox, but i still wish for some ajinamoto-free kind of warm porridge.

the sushi and sashimi there is truly cheap compared to malaysia and so i was having it for supper almost every night. but when you are sick, you just felt like puking when you have way too much raw food.

it's just nothing feels like home. Even though i can only have plain porridge and vegetables for lunch and dinner...still, it tastes like a delicacy. (i still secretly snack on other things though -- my mum and grandma are very particular on me being on a strict diet...practically can't eat anything that is deemed poisonous, heaty etc etc...you know how the old traditions and myths work ~~every soy sauce is a bane!)

but honestly speaking..when i was sick..i only wanted to be surrounded by my family and friends in Malaysia. no wonder my friends all get so depressed when they are studying abroad. now i understand how sad it feels like and what is genuine happiness...

like a wanderer who are free to roam and yet carries an emptiness in the heart knowing that there's no where he/she can belong to...and finally, found a tiny strand thread in which he/she can hang on to...and to look forward to in the end of the day.

that...is the pure happiness...

ahh..cut the dramatic part, i'm just happy to be back and especially back to Uni when i can tease the hell out of my friends for my leisure, as usual.....
haha and not to forget also, i'm back for good to manja on my mum and bf (and also i fooled the people at the custom! thank god my pox marks look more like pimples..uh-huhh)...LOL

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