d p r s d

A few months back...I was stressed out...like totally. I wanted things to come to a halt..and that's about it. So, they did.

A couple of months back...I was pretty happy enjoying life...until recently...I felt a lack somewhere. Seriously...

I was supposed to go out a while ago until my tiredness and hormones took over. I do not feel like seeing anybody...I do not feel like talking to anybody...simply because everyone is seemingly so shallow nowadays. Well...of course...RR is not...but sometimes, I would like a break. And at times I think WR is just a plain idiot...that now I need a break from h too. Sometimes, it's pretty heartbreaking to be in a situation when you would want to spend more time with someone and yet you would want to restrain yourself from doing that at the same time due to many ridiculous reasons. What should I do?

I was checking out kath's site and when I read "Don't worry darling, there are still people who will accept you"...I'm wonder aloud to myself. I feel stupid all over again.

Anyways...

I wanted to go to P...but then again...sometimes I don't feel belonged. geez...sometimes I wonder why am I always doing things which my group doesn't do...it somehow made me felt like a lone ranger sometimes. There...I need to get along with the right ones...

I guess...tonight, I'll lie low and complete reading the several journals I saved up (and am really glad I photocopy that textbook last time...I knew it will be of use!). That...is getting more and more like a lifelong passion. At least, it keeps me distracted from stupid thoughts and possibly heartache too. Right..especially when no one understands why you are doing what you are doing and feeling what you are feeling...