Random thoughts

How funny it is to read blogs of people who you know as a friend but not a close one. It is like if you know that person but not too well and when you are sitting next to each other, there will be an awkward moment and a basic conversation.

I know her but we are just friends who only smile to each other when we see one another down the corridor. Today I read some of her blogs and found that she was at a crossroad and recently had a breakup. We are not close and I think it will be pretty awkward for me to tell her these...so I'm just going to write it here and perhaps, someday...she or other people who are facing the same situation, can be digitally reached. (This is the part where I love technology and literacy -- oh..I do hope to learn more words on my own...so that the next time when somebody writes in Mandarin, I can at least make out some sensible statements)

Here goes:

1.
It gets really confusing altogether when you have just graduated and your future lies in front of you. You are cautious not to take the wrong path because it might just be the one that makes you wasted your years and thought it is the right path but you have no idea at all what path is right and what path is not. It's not like you can chose between going into the corporate world or into creating a brand of your own...you do not know what to chose even; at times, because you are a science graduate who wanted to survive doing science and build a castle out of imaginations -- and getting paid for that. Then again, it is very frustrating when situations forced you into a corner and take choices out of your hand. It is true that not everyone end up with a job that they initially planned but that would be really ideal, I know.

I guess it was that transition period which people (should I say: like us?) would face and it will take a year for the indecisive ones or those who was robbed out of their choices to actually adapt to the new environment - whether they like it or not. I myself is still trying to adapt to the new environment. Maybe I am slow, so to speak, that I felt really comfortable previously before the leap and now that after the leap, I kinda have doubts if the leap was the right step to take.

I have leaped into an world which I thought I wanted but an environment that can only be described as kiasu (uber kiasu). Then again, after much re-thinking...I supposed, yes, that is the leap that I wanted. Even after today, I am telling myself that I am not backing down because of all those kiasu-ness around me. At times, I felt like a fool at the center stage; lost of an aim/direction and what this fool does was being fooled and acting like a fool. But, no. I will not back down and there is only one way to exit from all the kiasu-ness: that is to climb up above and walk on the kiasu's head. Oh well, I guess the consolation is that not everyone in that world is kiasu. Some are really nice people :)

2.
I like the way she puts it: a girl with her heart in pieces. Don't we all once have our heart in pieces? I supposed this is one miraculous thing about human heart, they end up in pieces but with appropriate amount of Time and the correct dose of Love, the pieces can actually be sealed back like a brand new one :) Sometimes, when something are not meant to be, then it is not meant to be. She understands that part...probably executing what she understands is a little difficult.

Yea, I supposed execution is always the pain. When your brain tells you the logical thing to do, your heart will just tell you otherwise. Then again, what is not meant to be; is not meant to be :) Yesterday, there were two girls who called into the radio station to shout to the world of their break up. One of them said that it was pretty abrupt and it was due to their incompatibility while another girl shared that it was because of a third party. Well, the DJ should have told them, "What is not meant to be, is not meant to be and letting go is also an expression of Love."

So, all the best :)