Serious Thinking in need of Serious Actions

After so long, I have finally cleaned up my messy table today. I planned to find a photo of the before and after the clean-up but didn't manage to. I guess I have deleted the photo of 'before'. Anyways, you just gotta believe it, my table is Ultra Super Duper neat and tidy now...after the 3 years of constantly dumping notes, rough papers and books around. Ah...I missed those days...

Things have went on a fast track after the Uni life and it still is. Day comes day goes, for some lucky ones, they have managed to secure a job, for the wealthy ones, they are either still on holiday or have already gone to pursue the next level of education while for the least fortunate, they are still bumming at home.

Me?

I am partially bumming while working part time at the same time. I can't stay at home the whole day without doing anything. I would go crazy...insane...lunatic. My train of thoughts have been zooming like a bullet train, stopping briefly to make me realize something every now and then. Sometimes, I just have to distract myself.

Overall, in these 2 months, I was fortunate enough to be shortlisted by 3 of the best companies around in Malaysia for an interview but I was always caught unprepared. Two caught me when I'm not ready to take up any sales position, while the most recent one caught me when I was ready for a sales position but not a technical one. I love the recent job description (both challenging and perfect) but sad to say that my final year project (no matter how proud was I in it) and my internship did not prepare me well enough for such technical expertise. Damn god...I guess that is what you get for a minimal investment in Uni. I can't say that my Uni is that lousy but it is not good enough to prepare me for the working world. I shouldn't be blaming the institute but for those who know, they, too will agree that the syllabus were not sufficient in equipping the student with the necessary skills for them to survive as a graduate. Geez, now that the regrets set in, it made me feel that I should have gone under Dr.L during my final year. I bet I could have learn better and more under her supervision.

Anyways, that was in the past. I hope SV would call me up in the next two weeks and secure a place for me. That would be the best gift ever. But, the chance is seemingly slim I supposed...because, honestly I did rather badly during the interview. Right...great...so much a technical questions which I could not answer. I just hope that somehow, I left good vibes and they like my attitude (winning the other competitors).

That really gave me the urge to do some serious revision now...yea..it did. Argh, I've got so much to do and well...basically the To-do things on my list are:
1. Write & Email
2. Revise (For this, I really gotta kick my own arse to start doing it. I have been urging myself to do it but just somehow, I can't get myself to do it. How ironic!)
3. Tidy up (already did for my desk...half-way through my hard disk..so after that, I guess the next would be...uhm...my Memories box)
4. Self-reflection and improvement (I need to seriously overcome my nervousness and stage fright!)
5. Look for more openings
6. Exercise!!! (I am in serious need to go out and sweat it out...all those toxins in me are making me ill with laziness)

Gosh...now that I have written down my thoughts, everything has become clear...and in need of real movements to get them done!